today.

:)

mountain / molehill

mountain / molehill
uzi & ari


i said it seven months ago
this summer's gonna take it's tolll on me
and it's still tearing you to bits
from all the topsy turvey shifts that are taking you from me








trying to embrace the way of the peaceful warrior is more difficult than it sounds.
"where are you?" (here)
"what time is it?" (now)


here and now. here and now. not back then, not in the future, not there or there.
here and now.
here and now.
here and now.
here and now.
here and now.

25

life at 25 isn't so bad. getting rid of my false expectations caused some tears but helped my mental health a great deal. i proposed a dissertation (note that that would not have been said so nonchalantly had you talked to me in the days or hours before the proposal meeting), had a weekend in isolation, and finished the class portion of my "junior" year of grad school.

i can't wait until my life doesn't revolve around test dates, applications, pointless class assignments that i hardly see value in, treatment plans (wait... er... i guess i can handle the last one-- that is the field i'm going into). the diss proposal was a big step towards getting there-- there is an end in sight.

i am still mentally working on this list of birthday resolutions. but here's one:

DEFEND the dissertation while still 25. i would be the first person in the history of my program to do that.


eek, only 357 days left!